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(no subject) [Dec. 26th, 2005|01:28 pm]


My first ever 5 minute attempt at film making

Hope everyone's christmas was grand ;) I'm sick. Grr. There are two public holidays ahead of me and I might have to call in sick. Not happy Jan.

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(no subject) [Dec. 23rd, 2005|12:20 pm]

If there's blanks I'll fill them in laterCollapse )

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(no subject) [Dec. 23rd, 2005|01:29 am]
[feeling what? |thoughtfulstrange]

Last night I cleaned up a dirty drunken old man's shit. That's about the extent of my life lately. Looking after drunk people. Also known as work. Surprisingly enough, I am happier than I have been. For quite a while. I kind of feel alive for the first time. Or something. I blew up my computer.
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Change is as good as a holiday [Dec. 5th, 2005|08:36 pm]
[feeling what? |happyhappy]
[what's playing? |Frank]

Something completely unexpected and unexplainable is happening to me. I never thought I'd see the day, and I'm not even sure how I feel about it yet. I am beginning to diversify.

At Homebake I actually spent the majority of the day in the Big Top. Dancing. That's right. Dancing. Me. Dancing. Kelly. Dancing. For long periods of time. Dancing. Not drunk. Dancing. What's going on?

I've hardly been to any gigs in such a long time. I haven't been to Blink in such a long time. I enjoyed Decoder Ring more than Cog on Saturday. Don't get me wrong, Cog was fantastic. Here's a photo to prove it (bit blurry I know). Yes, that's Zeke there on stage singing The River Song (played for the first time in Sydney?), I couldn't be more happy at that moment, even if I was reasonably far back trying not to spill my drink. I love that song.

So apparently Full Scale are doing a couple more gigs. In Sydney and Newcastle. And more I'm sure. Or something. I won't believe it til I see it. But so much for breaking up.

I never want to see another flower balloon again. Today I made zillions of them for high school kids at this Sustainable Living expo at uni. Ahh I'm so glad I'm not in high school any more. I just wanted to post this photo because it amused me greatly. Tim (the most hard core Christian around) decided to paint my face. Of course I had no idea what he was painting til I looked in the mirror. I used to have another Christian friend in high school, and I always used to joke about her being a sheep, and we used to draw sheep just like that one all over each other's things.

Other than that my life consists of work, work and work. All bringing me closer and closer to my big trip overseas :)

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(no subject) [Dec. 2nd, 2005|10:40 am]
[feeling what? |contentworkaholic]
[what's playing? |Frank Sinatra - The Coffee Song]

I'm having a bit of trouble typing this out due to the massive cut on my finger from work a few days ago. It's quite a funny story actually. I cut it on the drain on the inside of the dishwasher. When Ed from work asked me yesterday how I did it, I told him and he held up his band-aided finger to me. Apparently he cut his finger not half an hour after I did on Tuesday in the exact same dishwasher. Maybe I should have warned him.

Speaking of the Mac, I was searching on our website last night to hopefully find the latest mistake-filled ad to show Anna (who is the only person who seems to feel my pain and embarrassment about it), and I stumbled across this...

"You should not consume commercially manufactured beer without risk of liver disease. Our Microbrewery has a licensee who is a doctor. He must therefore support this process as being HEALTHY."

Hahaha! I love it. The guy who owns our pub is a plastic surgeon (hence why he is so rich and doesn't care if the pub makes no money). Therefore, that gives us the right to claim that beer is healthy. Surely that must be against the law or something.
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(no subject) [Nov. 24th, 2005|10:18 am]
[feeling what? |crushedkinda sad]
[what's playing? |Cirque du soleil - reveil]

Very poor attempt at keeping my new years resolutions (see Dec 26, 2004). Hey I've still got a month left!

-Buy a digital camera - tick
-Start the jewellery stand at the markets with Len - ummm oops
-Keep more in touch with my friends from Campbelltown - i moved back there and i still never see them
-See more bands (if that's possible) - full stop no
-Read at least one non-uni book per fortnight - hahahaha
-It will not kill me to lose a few kg - does 2 count?
-Get at least 72 in every subject - hahahaha
-Keep my room/the house clean (yeah right) - HAHAHAHA
-Drink less coffee - tick
-Pay my bills/rent on time - more on time than before?
-Make more clothes - not really
-Continue to learn at least one new word per week (actually remember them!) - put them on msn, learnt them? maybe half
-Lower my phone bills - tick
-Learn fire staff - a little bit
-If I move home, get piano lessons again - no
-Stop bitching so much - no way
-From that I have to stop getting sick of people (I have come to realise this really is a problem with me and not them...) - what the hell was that about?
-Sell my car? - in the process
-Get a social work job by the end of the year? (maybe this is unrealistic) - yes it was
-De-stress! - yeah but i'm bored out of my fucking mind
-Work less (but work more and save up in the holidays) - done and done, see above
-Write a whole song (not just bits) - no way
-Make a real website - yeah right
-Return my library books on time (no more $350 worth of fines in one semester!!!) - i don't think i even borrowed any, so i'll go with yes
-Discover new bands - ?
-New piercings! - yay
-More travelling to see bands - not unless you count wollongong
-Quit the pharmacy - done
-And the most difficult one of all... work on kicking my relationship phobia - attempted and failed, but the key word was 'work on' so i'm gonna say yes
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(no subject) [Nov. 20th, 2005|04:43 pm]
[feeling what? |rejuvenatedfocused]
[what's playing? |The Dissociatives - Sleep Well Tonight]

Memories are funny things. Mine is shocking. In any case, I was at the movies last night and watching the previews. I was a bit distracted and not really watching, but I caught a glimpse of some children falling out of some kind of door into the snow. And all of a sudden i thought "oh my God I can't believe they are making a movie of the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe". And I got all excited, thinking that I haven't read that book for years and years. And being someone that doesn't remember anything I've watched or read for more than a week, I watched the whole of the preview without recognising any of it from the book. And thinking back to my childhood I don't remember when I read the book or ANYTHING about it at all. I certainly can't remember reading anything about a bunch of children falling out a door into some snow. So where did that thought come from? It must be deep in there somewhere... I wonder if the rest of the book is in there too. I wonder if all the other things in life I have such trouble remembering are in there somewhere too. And how the hell do I get in there???
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A free woman [Nov. 14th, 2005|09:52 pm]
[feeling what? |gigglyall over the place]
[what's playing? |just tv - queer as folk]

So I'm now officially finished uni. Not a student any more. Supposed to look for a job. Etc. Won't be happening in a hurry I can assure you.

Anyhow, life is average. It feels completely different and just so stressless right now. I can't seem to get used to it. I'm not working until Friday but somehow it still doesn't feel like a break. Ahh life is strange.

In other news, I'm told apparently Full Scale are breaking up. Or falling apart. Or something.

A bit of whatever for me right now though.

I have an appointment tomorrow with the professor, the crazy expert on my insaneness. His secretary should be ready to cop the abuse of her lifetime. If I was someone else. Only I am me and I can't do that. But I will try, my point will be made. That she can be sure of.
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(no subject) [Nov. 7th, 2005|03:09 pm]
[feeling what? |busyhectic]
[what's playing? |cog - the song that sounds like it should be on a sci fi]

Great weekend, went camping with some circus peoples for Praying Grantus's unbirthday. We went to the Basin which is ferryable from Palm Beach. And no I didn't see anything familiar or Home and Away like even though I was looking out.

There was muchness of alcohol consumed by all and some firey goodness to be had. I was impressed that we were allowed to have fires even though it was a national park, and it has inspired me to be an expert bbq cook as I haven't cooked one in years.

I'm trying to organise a venue for the circus party. Everything I look into is booked out or not appropriate. Hmm

Life at home is killing me. It's just so far away from the world. Well it's not far from the world of Campbelltown, but it's certainly far from the world I know and love in the city. Everything takes ten times more effort and I just miss out on so much. Ahh that's life I suppose. I'll be going overseas next year. That's what's getting me through this.

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'the skilled helper' that can't even help herself.. [Oct. 29th, 2005|05:32 pm]
[feeling what? |confusedconfused]
[what's playing? |in the woods - path of the righteous]

I feel so ridiculously all over the place at the moment. I am about to finish uni in 2 weeks. I'm so incredibly happy about it and I can't wait to finish, yet I'm terrified out of my mind that I'm leaving this huge part of my life behind me.

I suppose the time I moved out then started uni is really when my life started to take on this new element of happiness that never existed until that point. I have had so many changes take place in the last four months, I hardly feel like the same person any more. And I was so happy being that person.

Now all of a sudden I'm back at my parent's house, I've missed out on so much stuff socially because all I am doing is working all day and all night and all weekend (that and the godawful travel from campbelltown and back every day). I haven't been to any gigs in ages or seen any of the fantastic people I always saw. I wasn't able to be in the circus show which disappointed me enormously. And all that took me four years to achieve in terms of my relationship with my parents (ie. actually having one) is falling apart. I feel like my identity was left behind in the city when I moved back here, and there's not a chance of me regaining it for at least another year.

One element of sanity has returned over the last week with me ending the longest stint of me not being single for yes, that's right, 6 months. That was probably the tip of the iceberg that just led me to not feel like me any more. I have never had to feel any kind of obligation to anyone before. Sure I've wanted to see people and do things for them, but never because I've felt like I HAVE to. And I know it's something I probably should have worked at. But you know what? Right now I really don't want to. I'm in confused, depressed and selfish mode, and it's not fair to put someone through that. Especially someone who deserves so much more. I don't know that I've ever hurt someone so much before. And I feel terrible. But you have to look out for #1 right?

The biggest secret I had kept from my parents for over a year is now out and causing strife thanks to the world's most dodgy receptionist. She will pay.

This is definitely the most personal I have ever become on this thing, and I have no idea what inspired it. But here it is. Anyway, as a nice distraction and being that this page is becoming rather boring, how about a piece of art to liven it up. It's by a guy called Mark Ryden

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(no subject) [Oct. 16th, 2005|05:40 pm]
[feeling what? |apatheticapathetic]
[what's playing? |APC - magdalena]

LJ Interests meme results

  1. beer:
    Carlton Draught is my latest discovery of beer. Once I had one I never went back. Beer is my life, quite literally. Because if I didn't get money for pouring people beer, then well, there wouldn't be much left.
  2. chocolate:
    Chocolate is not my literal life, but I couldn't imagine life without it. Mmm
  3. drum media:
    Drum media is what I read on the bus on the way home. Because I generally tendto forget a book. And I refuse to pay money for stupid girly magazines. I ususally get it from Plum these days, what with being right in front of the bus stop. As an addition to this story, I also bought the funkiest bag from this shop, with a very cute looking cockroach on the front...
  4. glebe:
    My dream suburb. I will live here one day.
  5. junto:
    A band. What can I say
  6. mess:
    I don't know what this is supposed to mean, other than that I am not clean.
  7. newtown:
    My second dream suburb. If I don't live in Glebe, I will definitely live here.
  8. salvador dali:
    Melting clocks and elephants with long legs
  9. switchkicker:
    Another band. Not too much more to say
  10. tool:
    The ultimate of the ultime. Yet the total opposite at the same time.

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

Not a particularly random assortment of interests actually. I tried and tried to get it to pick different ones that perhaps would warrant more interesting descriptions but it was not to be.
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the onset of my destruction [Oct. 3rd, 2005|01:40 am]
[feeling what? |weirdgrrr]
[what's playing? |anathema to the max]

Oh god I'm drunk.

Umm Go Tigers. This is probably the first time I've ever felt proud to be from Campbelltown

Certain person hates me. I don't know why. I can't remember a time when life has been more stressful. Why pick this time to do this to me now. I want it to be over. I want to disappear.

Thank you to old friends and random strangers for making me feel better

I think soon it's my turn to hibernate
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